Sunday, January 31, 2010

I heard church bells ring
I heard a choir singing
I saw my love walk down the aisle
on her finger he placed a ring
Oooh oh
I saw them holding hands
She was standing there with my man
I heard them promise
Till death do us part
Each word
Was a pain
In my heart
All i could do was cry
All i could do was cry
I was losing the man that i love
and all i could do was cry
And now the wedding is over
Rice, rice has been thrown over their heads
For them life has just begun
but mine is ending
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Not sure what inspired this sad song..
but its so sad :(

Friday, January 22, 2010

ARIES
The Aggressive ( in mugging? lol..)
Outgoing.
Lovable. Spontaneous..
Not one to mess with.
Funny.. ( definitely.)
Excellent kisser ( haven't tried out yet.. )
EXTREMELY adorable. ( hey look people I'm EXTREMELY ADORABLE HAHAHAHA)
Loves relationships, and family is very important to an aries.
Aries are known for being generous and giving.
Addictive. Loud. ( I'm addicted to big bang.. and yes I'm LOUD.. most of the time.)
Always has the need to be 'Right'.
Aries will argue to prove their point for hours and hours. ( nt all the time.. right? :p)
Aries are some of the most wonderful people in the world... (most definitely)

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Germ-phobic
Verminophobia?
I dont think everyone knows this.. but.
I'm really quite.. averse to germs.
Actually its always usually only applicable to cold/cough viruses..
So if you're coughing/sneezing/blowing your nose and you're in my 2 metre radius..
I'll automatically stop breathing and possibly close my eyes(since viruses can enter your body through your eyes)/stare at you.
As far as I know, no one really does this.
But phobias arent logical right?
I know the possibility of catching the virus is.. low.. but its better to be safe than sorry.
(especially since I take a long long time to recover from flus and coughs)
So I really cant help it if you feel alienated/hurt when I shy away or literally run from you if you're sick.
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I know you must be thinking :' amanda is so weird. she walks thru a hospital twice every day and says she's afraid of germs!'
yeah yeah fine whatever I'm lazy so there.
but it helps when now almost everyone's wearing a mask.
its not like I dont take precautions as well.
I dont walk where the visitors are queueing up.. I keep my eyes averted.. all those stuffs
hmph.
say what you like.

Friday, January 15, 2010

Isnt it inevitable that at some point someone somewhere will say something about you?
I wonder how we all dont go crazy trying to find out what it is they are saying.
Then again
If you think about it.
It's worse knowing than not knowing.
Because you have to act like you dont.
Which is something I .. find most difficulty doing.
Like feeling that your hands are stained with blood when the person looks at you.
Even though the guilty one is not you.
Or is it?
Arent we all guilty of talking behind someone else's back?
Does that momentary weird high last after doing so?
Feeling like you've bonded even closer with those you have gossiped to?
When will we ever grow up?
to the point where we are matured enough to discipline ourselves against such ungodly acts..
extricate yourself from world's grasp..
dont conform to the world.
its not going to last, remember?

Friday, January 8, 2010

Perfect only in her imperfections.
Beautiful Disaster; Jon Mclaughlin
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you know based on my personality type INFJ,
I was asked if I pictured things in a futuristic way.
Frequently.
Very frequently.
Its essentially how I look at everything.
haha hm.. how do I go about explaining it.
okay lets say I'm looking at a newborn baby -
what feelings will you have?
my very first, strangely so, would be pity.
Why pity?
Thats because I already picture the baby growing up, having to go through endless rounds of scolding, endless rounds of crying before he matures fully.
I think this makes me very weird.
another scenario would be if im looking at a newly married couple..
wow.. my brain jus fast forwards me to scenes of them quarelling w each other blah blah blah.
If u realise,
my very imaginative brain tends to be very negative as well.
I dont really know why.
maybe from what I've witnessed in my life..
my brain has deduced that the downs are more significant than the ups?
what a crap deduction.
maybe I should try laughing more.
Did you know that your body cant tell the difference between a real laugh and a fake one?
so whichever the case, endorphins are produced.
and endorphins are GOOD FOR YOU.
:)
there you go.
A healthy tip for the day.

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

This post is totally self-indulgent,
though my initial plans were to inspire... *prattles on*
T.O.P. + Sandara Park
(dara from 2NE1)
Taken from their mv... dammit.
Sandara + GD (gd is love here!)

GD+ dara ( my fave 'hello' song!)
gd's sneakers are awesome. As always.
GD + CL (leaders of big bang and 2NE1!)
yup.. gd's hair is permed.. ew!
GD+ gaho (his beloved dog!)
Cl looking fab
CL + dara (haha her lollipop glasses!!)
2NE1:
Minzy / CL/ Dara/ Park Bom
Park Bom's cover
'You and I'
(totally love this song for now...)

No matter what happens
Even when the sky is falling down
I’ll promise you
That I’ll never let you go
You and I together
It just feels so right







Tuesday, January 5, 2010

I suppose its a little strange liking that i'll be turning 18 this year.
I dont know
but I think its got to do the fact that it makes me sound more mature than I really am.
But its still so strange hearing the number..
and 19 will be like ten steps ahead of 18.
then.. 20..
omg.. then 21.
How can one grow up so much in such a short time?
:D
Even better that my birthday falls on a sunday..
I would really hate it if it fell on a school day.
Not the fact that school is dreadful..
more that there wouldnt be any surprises from the class.
I dont want any of that.
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